Archive for February, 2010

Eczema and Confidence

February 17, 2010

Eczema affects confidence. Fact.

In fact I’ll go as far to say the amount of eczema I have is directly proportional to the lack of confidence I have.

It dictates how well I sleep, how well I feel, what mood I’m in and what I wear. On the back of this I have been known to comfort eat when feeling down. In fact I comfort ate my way to 20 stone over a 14 year period.

If my eczema gets me down then I don’t do much. Or anything. Including live my life. It is this cycle that needs to be broken as I know it doesn’t have to be this way.

The question is how do I start? I’ll be the first to admit I use my moisturising cream daily but only break out the steroid creams etc when it gets really bad. And when I do I stop using them as soon as it clears up. What I should be doing is using them for a few days after it’s gone too as its my understanding now (GP Advice) that the eczema has gone from the surface but still lurks below so still needs the treatment! I was brought up thinking that too much was bad, it seems not enough is bad too!

The other big one is scratching! As you may have seen in an earlier blog I have many inventive ways to scratch. All of which mean my eczemas going nowhere fast 🙂

The first step though is acknowledging the problem and asking for help. For example my friends now tell me off if they see me even go to scratch… And this has started to work! You’d be surprised how often you attempt to scratch even without realising. It’s not even itchy it’s just a habit. And they can be broken with will power and friends 🙂

I’m feeling positive about this whole non scratching thing so I’ll keep you posted!

Rant “You’re not really allergic to that…”

February 3, 2010

I do like to rant every now and then…

This time, it’s about my food intolerance to wheat/gluten. I live a wheat free life style because after blood tests the docs told me I shouldn’t eat wheat, to be honest I don’t actually know if eating wheat affects my eczema that much but since I’ve stopped eating it I don’t get any stomach cramps when eating, I don’t get bloated anymore and I don’t have this sudden urge to use the W.C.!

Avoiding this has led to my life being slightly more comfortable in the stomach/bowel region.

So when people tell me that avoiding wheat is a pointless exercise because it hasn’t made my skin any better I tend to get frustrated that they can’t see that eating it causes me to be uncomfortable.

Also, with my food allergies I tend to find myself in lots of situations were I have to refuse things because of my intolerance to wheat. This again leads to certain people saying such things as…

“I understand you can’t eat certain things, but you tell everybody at any opportunity that you are special and can’t eat things and you really are just saying it for the attention now.”

Priceless!

You understand? If you did then you wouldn’t be giving me grief for handling things the way I do! So no, you don’t understand. Nor do you want to, you seem quite happy being ignorant from atop your pedestal.

Tell people at every opportunity? I’d rather not have to tell people at all thanks. I’d also rather not have any skin allergies at all. And to be fair it’s sometimes awkward when people insist you take something because they think you are just being polite in refusing. A quick explanation and all is well.

The attention? Really? Hey look at me! I’m special because I have eczema and I’m allergic to stuff which causes me to be in pain at times and can sometimes lead you to feeling that all there is in the world is just you and your skin and consequently zaps all your confidence and before you know it you’re a mess. Yeah, real special.

And if leading a life of obscurity is how you don’t get eczema then show me where to sign up for that!!

Rant over 🙂